Wednesday, June 10, 2009

On Caffeine and Being Pushed Off Track

I have been terribly sleepy since yesterday, wait... for three days. Yung tipo ng antok na mahirap labanan… parang mabigat ang ulo, groggy, tapos I struggle to fight it off which leaves me tired and even more sleepy. I can name several culprits:

- ilang gabing pagpupuyat sa kakanood ng French Open. Ang saya manood, enjoy ako. It’s a recently-discovered interest of mine and hubby. A much welcome break from watching one murder after another at CSI or those highly-strung, highly-stressed defense lawyers at The Practice. Ang saya pag kasama ko hubby manood kasi feel na feel n’ya. With matching nausea, wretching, palpitation and flushing pa s’ya, grabe… minsan natatakot ako baka bigla na lang atakihin sa puso. Ang saya, especially nung manalo si Federer. But, pray tell me… why do these darn tennis matches take forever? Three to four hours! Grabe!

- I have been skipping coffee for the past two days (not deliberately, busy lang may mga lakad) after more than a week of drinking two 400 ml servings a day. I ended up having these vague, right-sided frontal headaches (non-throbbing). Caffeine withdrawal? Kasama din daw sa symptoms ang irritability but then again, maybe it’s just me being… well, me.

- I had to make some errands because of school opening. Got myself preoccupied with concerns such as uniforms, black shoes, notebooks, undies… I hated that hubby made me wait until almost last-minute to attend to these things when I have had all the free time I my hands. Something about credit card cut-offs, which in the end, turned out to be much sooner than it actually is kasi credit card ko naman din ang ginamit ko, which meant that the delay/wait was useless and baseless and became cause for more unwarranted stress for me… sigh. Don’t ask anymore. I’m obviously ranting here. Sorry.

- I have been lagging behind my time table. I am about twenty-two chapters behind. I know, it’s nuts… the exam is 68 days away but the lag is making me tired and crabby. The deadline for exam requirements turned out to be much earlier than what was previously relayed to me (I was misinformed, unintentionally naman). Anyway, I had to stress myself into completing the requirements… letters, photocopies, CV, etc… this set me off of my track. Medyo nawala ang momentum ko. Everything was going on very smoothly before this. Being the ok-ok and regimented monster that I am, medyo nahihirapan ako to get back on track. (Tapos nagtataka pa ako bakit ganun si Kuya eh halata obvious naman sa akin nagmana). Lord, please help me!
I have got to so something about this and bring myself to get back on track. Somebody please help me. More importantly, I know I have to help myself.

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